That Moment You Feel Disconnected

Ever felt like you simply don’t belong?

We have all been in situations when it seemed like there was no harmony in the experience. You know. Sight and sound have turned topsy turvy and nothing seems to be flowing correctly into your sensory organs.

Your brain, that thinking and awareness center, can not make sense of the moment. Something feels off. Out of place. Maybe even a little weird.

It may be due to sickness, or a mental block to what you are experiencing, but something doesn’t feel right. And you just can’t put your finger on it!

I felt this recently. Pikes Place Market. I have a little cold running through my system, so this may all be a reflection of meds, lack of sleep and the discomfort that comes from suffering around others. My mental acuity did not feel just right, but the sights and sounds were a little jarring, almost like a band not in tune and everyone playing their own favorite piece. Jingle. Jangle. Clash.

It sets you on edge, unable to enjoy the moment as much. The crowds of people. The rapidly changing weather. Rain. Wind. Sun. That doesn’t bother me as it does some, but it was affecting the mood of the crowd. Did I mention the crowds of people? Way too crowded for me.

And everyone wanted to go to that Germy Gum Wall… I don’t understand it!

A lot of this experience was similar to what I sampled in the Jerusalem markets, but that was an exciting experience. New. Different. I felt better and it felt comfortable then. But currently? Must be the cold. Or whatever it is.

Makes me wonder, “Why am I here?”

Ever consider the disconnection you feel in life with the surroundings? Those friends, co-workers, and even family, that we love and trust. That community we normally feel totally connected to? Add all the fresh news of the day and it easily leaves you feeling discombobulated. Disjointed. Out of sorts.

It all adds up! It’s hard to make sense what’s happening around you…in you…to you… Why am I here?

I recently read that Tony Romo struggled to find his place in his new normal world and distancing himself from his old normal. “… it’s just a lot of limbo.”

Limbo.
Good analysis. Uncomfortable with what you were, or what you may soon be. Discombobulated.

I suspect Tony will adapt to this new normal and adjust just fine. He seems to be that “rebounding” type of personality. Only time will tell how his newly remodeled self will adjust to the new normal.

So. What do you do? At Pike’s, I take my wallet and put in a zippered coat pocket. Yep. That feels right. Protecting something important from the potentially unknown perpetrator of a crime. Regardless. It felt that kind of weird. There, but not. Neither here, nor there… but where?

The best thing for me to do? I understand “me” so very well. Retreat to a place of feeling safe and comfortable. Out of the crowds and discordant sights and sounds. A dark corner. A hot cup of dark roast coffee. Silence. Peace. Quiet.

There came a time on my first trip to Israel when I needed to get away from everyone I knew in our group. One time specifically was after the boisterous walk down the gorge leading to Petra. We had already been touring for seven days. I needed some alone time. I wandered away from the crowd of travel mates, found a shaded corner around the bend, and settled in to find my own peace in the turmoil of the day.

But when you have so much responsibility on your plate and that retreat cannot happen. Just yet. So you “buck up” and persevere till the ending of the trip.

Ahhhaaa… Sweet Retreat. Nice, cool, dark corner of the house. My chair… A steaming cup of Hot Black Coffee. Quiet. Shhhh…..! Home.

Here’s my thought today. You need to know what you need to experience to have peace and sanity restored so you can go out and face the next challenge!

Jesus is readying his followers for his soon departure. No longer would he physically be in their presence to instruct, comfort or lead. Where he had often left his followers behind to find his own rest from the crowds, they would now need something to experience so they could live at the head of the crowds soon to follow them.

Peace I leave with you,
My peace I give to you;
not as the world gives do I give to you.
Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
(John 14:27 NKJV)

Peace. The original meaning and use of this word imply prosperity. And that may be why many have a prosperity doctrine they espouse. But the word goes deeper. It actually means “quietness, rest“… And I hear these words whisper to my inner person from a song of years gone by.

In the midst of the midnight
Have I oft hid my face
While the storm howls above me,
And there’s no hiding place.
Mid the crash of the thunder,
Precious Lord hear my cry!
Keep me safe, till the storm passes by!

Till the storm passes over, till the thunder sounds no more
Till the clouds roll forever from the sky
Hold me fast, let me stand in the hollow of Thy hand
Keep me safe till the storm passes by!

Songwriters: THOMAS MOSIE LISTER ‘Til The Storm Passes By

Ready to find your place of rest and respite from the crazy world twirling around you? It’s storming! And your resting place is there. You just need to know where to find it! And that place is as unique to you, as mine is to me.

And when all is said and done, and the twirling dervishes of life cease, you can step out of your respite…recharged! Ready to face the world! And Win!

Praying for you!